Your Morning

This morning, of all mornings is yet another Blessing that shows itself and I was happy to listen to the results that it had in store to share.

As a Believer I get the question as I did earlier this week from a friend why is it that when I write G-d the way I do. I simply stated what I had learned. What I had learned was that we as humans do not know exactly what G-d considers to be in vain. I of course like any of us am human and do mess up on a regular basis. The Glory of that is that I know when I ask for forgiveness that it is given. Have I used the Lord's name in vain? Yes, I have. I have I done it deliberately and in a habit forming way? Yes, I have. Have I made excuses for what I have done not just about using his name in vain but in other things to justify a means to an end? Yes, I have. Am I proud of the actions that I have done in my weaker moments? No. Am I glad I have recognized and been able to gain strength from the moments of weakness in order to become a better person? You bet I am!

Today as well as the last few weeks have been filled with confirmation. I happen to be one of those people, that I have to see it time and time again and then the light bulb comes on. I don't know if that is because I'm surprised he is talking to me or that we just need to have that undeniable proof sitting there as affirmation as we have been conditioned by society that this simply isn't true to hear what he is saying.  That we must go to a building with people all gathered in the pews to hear him from the front of the room from some man speaking words we have not yet researched ourselves but take their word that just know. I call that conditioning. I'm not blaming society for this I am Actually saying we need to take that Responsibility to dive deeper into our own roots to figure things out and to confirm what that man is saying in front of the room. TO KNOW, not to just Believe as Belief can be altered but a Knowing you are going to need to have a deeper grip to change that decision from someone. Are you following me in what I'm saying here?

Today, a Dear Friend out of the blue responded to a Facebook reply that I had made. From there as my true desire is to be understood and like anybody I can misplace my words or not be as clear as I need to be. I thought I might have been misunderstood and I messaged her to make sure she understood that meant to be honoring her courage to be herself and freely express how raw she is in life. Meaning how true she is to herself and to others around her. How she inspires people just be being herself and letting others know that it is Ok to have feelings and to let them flow. What it came down to is this. It came down to our Hearts.. Which in turn turns to Intimacy. Yep, I said it! That word that people have preverted to something that it really wasn't meant to be. I find it rather interesting that the intimate words that were terms of endearment have been twisted to things that they are not meant to be. Intimacy turned into a sexual meaning only. When the core of the word means to have depth, have heart. Something that I would wager that any of us would like to have in our own relationships with all of our family members and friends. TO Not be afraid to express whom we truly are and to Support and Love no matter what. We are afraid that if we allow others to see the depths of us they will reject us. Never mind that if you live your true self you will be happier and content in the people that you meet and in the decisions that you make and you will inspire others to do the same by setting the example. You can not hide from yourself but you can let everyone else see that you are not true to yourself and in doing so they will see that they have no need to be true to you.

As I'm talking with this friend, My heart leaps.. It has been a heart week, in several manners. She has so much Passion and Love for life! She wants everyone to be there! No matter where they have come from she can see it for them. I wager to say that in some cases she sees it more than they do in their own lives but she is willing to breathe life into it for them so they may have a peak at it to know.  That energy that she has is pure. It is Pure Love that comes from the Depths of her Heart which she feels with her Soul.  That grab ahold of you kind of heart. I say we all need at least a few of these types of people in our lives at least at first. If we are fortunate enough to have them in our lives from the beginning I've seen people walk away from it because they think there is better, only to realize they must return to it.  If you have never had a Heart person in your life starting with one and building is essential!  You may think I'm joking, but I'm going to tell you in order to have a successful life to have life lived to the fullest, YOU MUST have a heart person in your life. I'm going to go one step further and tell you that the first one shouldn't be your partner!

Just for a moment, take it for yourself. I want you to envision your heart and how it beats. It's an Amazing Machine! It is affected by how we feel, both physically and mentally! It is one of the only things in life that is so finely tuned into your whole being. Now, Imagine if you will if you only used a fraction of that like the size of a dandelion. Do you think that it would be very effective?  That is exactly what you are doing when you chose not to look at yourself and to see the whole truth about life. You have limited your potential in whom you are.  Not what you expected?  GOOD! Do NOT be afraid to be whom you are. Since we are driven in the beginning with fear. The best way to describe this is imagine not being your full potential because of fear.  With True Knowledge comes Peace and Understanding to depth which you never experienced before.. Think I'm Wrong? Try it for yourself and see. Expand your wings and get ready to soar like an eagle!

For my Dear Friends we all need a Heart Person, that one that pushes us to learn more that will challenge us and still love us when we do fall because they remember what it was like. May you be Blessed to day and from here forward, May you Find Your own Personal Truths so that you may teach others to be a witness of their own truths to live a Happier and Healthier life!  Amen

Truths Part 1

New Beginnings.
Not something that everyone expects to chose or to happen, sometimes it just happens.. I now remember though, asking G-d to renew me, to make me new again. I didn't ask him to do this just once, but I asked him several times in several different ways. You know, he does answers prayers. You just may not understand that capacity of why it has come to you in that manner it has but it none-the-less an answered prayer.

Before this all transpired I had a Firm Belief in G-d. After this all happened I know G-d. There is a significant difference in Believing in G-d and Knowing. A Belief can be waivered even if it is one that you have had your entire life. A knowing there has to be more proof in order for that it be waivered.

As I have grown in the truth of G-d there have been many questions that have come to mind. Some of them more so because I have been able to surround myself with like minded people. Where I have been able to express myself and then challenge myself. A renewed Spirit for Truth.

One of my pet peeves in life is lies. It is something that I have a very difficult time with. Yet, society allows it all too readily.  From things that we have been conditioned to know since we were little to where we are now. What we spew out of our mouths or what we write is just that, open for someone to debate this own beliefs. However, a Belief is Very different than the truth. It maybe what you were taught as it should be true but it doesn't mean that it is true, it was a conditioned thought put in our minds by someone of respect. Does that make sense? For example. The people of the world were told that the earth was flat. That literately believed that if they traveled beyond a certain point that they would fall off the ends of the earth. That Belief was so strong and the fear that surrounded that encompassed the masses as not wanting to explore beyond where there were told. Then, someone did. It was discovered that it was round. Columbus was living during the time that the world was flat and the ocean was filled with Monsters. Yet, he traveled to the new world and discovered that it must not be flat and there were not the so called Monsters in the seas as they thought. Although I can imagine that a whale would look alot like a monster that would scare anybody at that point in time.. The lie which was a truth had to be proven that it wasn't as such. My pet peeve of lies is that I have known later that Yes, I have lied. We all have done it. We can say no we haven't yet we are warned that we will lie and commit other sins as well. The Honor is in recognizing that it is a lie and choosing NOT to live in that  lie again.

We are all conditioned in life to believe what we are told by our elders. It is one of respect and honor. I do not know of a culture anywhere in the world that is not conditioned this way. Now, at a certain point there are people that begin to question their conditioning earlier than others and there are some that will never question their conditioning as that is just not something that you do. A person whom questions their conditioning is not necessarily looking for the loop holes but they are looking for the complete understanding of why. I know that my Great Grandmother was my Matriarch in life.  I do not ever remember her ever speaking an ill word towards another human being. It was of her generation that if there was an issue it certainly wasn't discussed in front of a child, they will have time enough to learn how to deal with those such things. As she taught me how to make the chewy chocolate chip cookies and other items that we baked. She also taught me how to be kind and loving to all those around me. Somewhere in there, I believe she instilled in me the power of being positive and looking on the bright side of things. That has somehow cared throughout my whole life. That love and respect for others. As such though if someone acting like my Great Grandmother I would automatically give them the curiosity that they would act the same honorable way she did. I was wrong more than once. I have not regretted that, as it taught me valuable lessons. Not ones of taint and mistrust but that I needed to be more aware in life.

We all have moments in life that can define us or transform us into different people. I firmly believe that if we allow each moment to transform or define us into being someone negative we will condition ourselves to do so. We shall fail as that is the mind set of a negative person. They prefer to fail. Those that are positive chose to take those moments to reflect and go over and go over yet again and take responsibility for their own actions that were a cause and effect where they are going and Constantly strive to do better. They have an easier time saying that they are Sorry for their mistakes and strive for understanding in this world, which means looking for solutions instead of creating problems.

As I travel forward, I am challenged to look at the very root of my life. The foundation. I wants truths. I already know that G-d walks with me. What is it that I do not understand is the why. I remember now, that when I was younger I asked who wrote the Bible. Of course I got the standard answer. Something to the effect that people wrote it for G-d. As I got older I wondered why there were so many Bibles. Of course I got the standard answers of so that there were ones for helping others understand more.. Then I asked where are the real translations, which I never got a true satisfied response for. It was wide and varied but still within the comfortable realm in which I allowed at that point to be ok. None of them are truths.  As My favorite Bible is the New King James Bible, it is what I was given when I was confirmed. Only to find out that, King James bible was translated to suit King James of England, had it defined to suit him and his needs to have more control over his people. The  New King James Bible (NKJ)  however was then again translated by Arthur Farstad. Now, why would we allow our most sacred text to be depicted by some other ruler other than G-d above? I would call that conditioning as well. Which brought other questions to mind. What else was I conditioned to believe? I remember stories of when Christ was born. Then the other stories of he was born in July but we celebrate it in December as that is when the 3 kings, wise man, found him. SO which is it really? Does it really matter as the whole? The theory that the church made it on the 25th of December so that the pagan celebration of the winter solace would not be so celebrated. So was that a rumor as to derail Christians or is it the truth. If it was to help derail the Christians so that they wouldn't go after the pagan holidays is it not now a pagan thing within the Church as it is not Christs True Birthday but yet a lie?

As I've grown older and I'm not so impressed within the Church there are lies and supposively they are there to protect us. That we are not educated and knowledgeable within the works of G-d to have that much understanding. To me that is an oxi-moron, since the church's job is to educate and enrich our lives with the Holy Spirit, and what they are saying is that they are not able to do so. That their priests, pastors, ministers or whomever are more knowledgeable and they have a purity that the rest of us do not. We all know that isn't true. So while the Church lies to us and they are upset with us when we repeat the lies, are we not all doomed when none of us know the whole truth? Here is one source of information but are you ready for some homework as I am.. When was Jesus born? 

This all weights heavy on me as I Love the Holidays. I've not truly celebrated the holidays in many years as the circumstances in our lives had changed. Now, I chose to live life and suck out all the marrow in it.  I must find the whole truths and not be afraid of others and what they may perceive. As they had already had their minds up before you even spoke a word. It is not our job to make others understand the truths it is our job to have an understanding so that the truths will come to light.   As I do not want to disgrace G-d, but to have complete understanding in him and what his wants and desires are. To seek him in all aspects in life. To honor him as he has honored me in bring me back from the depths of the abyss.

We had developed an understanding in my weeks and months of recovery. When I had no such knowledge. I was created new as I had prayed he would do, just not in the manner I had expected him to.